I never make New Years resolutions. I typically don’t believe in them. The problem, as many people can attest to I am sure, is that for perfectionists like me, making New Years resolutions is setting oneself up for failure. And NO perfectionist wants to fail. You know?
But there are some things that I know I need to work on this year, as evidenced from past looming mistakes. And I will, in the spirit of openness, vulnerability, and accountability, share them with you.
In order of importance:
I will not ever ask another man on a date. If you are interested, you should be man enough to take the first step. If you’re not….too bad. This is a huge one coming from me, because typically if I see something I want, I just go after it. But no longer. You can come after me for a change. And who knows, the change might be kind of nice.
“Mean, lazy, stupid, idiot.” Echoes of words that I shall no longer let define me. I am not those things. No matter how many times they were said. I just need to realize it in my heart and in my soul. It won’t be easy, but God will replace those words with His truth. He has already begun a new work. Oh how He loves me!!! Right?
I will start to do what I know is right for me in my life regardless of how it makes others feel. I will no longer give in to you when I know in my heart it is the wrong thing for me to do. If that hurts your feelings in some way, or you don’t feel validated because I’m doing something for ME, then that’s just too bad. I have made so many mistakes because of my insane need to please and to make others feel good about themselves. Most of the time at my expense. Again, this will be challenging for me. But I’m going back to counseling this month, and I know I’ll get some great ideas to help make me strong.
Finally, and most importantly, I’m not setting any silly goals as far as reading my Bible more, being a better prayer warrior, doing my quiet time every day. They’re important, but honestly I long and yearn to grow more in love with Jesus, and hence grow more in love with those around me. I want to be a servant. I want to see ways where I can love on people. To meet them where they are. And not expect anything in return.
So 2012, BRING IT! I got this. Jesus is for me, so who can be against me? Can I get an AMEN?!
Christ in Me- Johanna
